So My Previous Relationship Was a Off and On Thing For about 5 years. The “Off” Was Always Weird. *
U’re Never Free*. She Has A Child.. That I grew to Love Dearly, I really do.. Now I dont Have Any Children Of My Own, So im Not Sure where my place is on these off times. * I watch Folk Continue a Healthy Relationship wit children during the “Off”* And I wanna Do The Same, But I guess There’s Not Enough “Parental Battery” In my Back. * That Parent Intuition.. The Vibe… The sick Feelin of seperation n such*.. Its Like I feel All That, But not that deep and i think Of Course.. Im Not a Parent. But i Feel It.. I wanna do it how i see fit, or atleast the best possible way.. maintaining a healthy wit “Ms” as well. I dont think She believes In it Tho.. You’d think i Missed some Sort Of memo, But Yea… I’m Pretty Sure its a pinch Of Resentment towards me.. ** Our Relation is another story SMDs*… but in One breath she’ll tell me He’s Lookin For me..askin about me.. and i dont need permission 2 check him..etc.. but when i do reach out.. its all kinds of FOH .. and u dont care”, leave us alone.”etc.. ..* Maybe Not Enough, Or To Her standards* ..Puts me in a Weird Place… She’ll Say Things like i pick him up n down at my leisure .. and no. I disagree.* I have to put myself in the responsible position as a adult to take care of a child.which i havent..Pardon.…..But… Its This Wall She puts Up.. That makes communication difficult..and such.. You’d Think 5 years in we’d have a better bond as adults.. But again * Our Relation .. A Different Story*. So Its Hard.. I could Speculate n assume.. but i dont know.. In Conclusion: Its A killjoy, the confusion i put myself thru.. i could easily say fck it.. but thats not where my heart is.. Its not like me and her child didnt bond.. Im Not tryna be in and out.. But Where There’s No obligation and lack of communication.. what can i do.. but overstep my boundary.. I have no say so.. technically. But its being perceived as if i dont give a fck.. That shit aint right.. Pardon My Heart..
So Yep.. Baby Momma Drama. Aint even got no Babies”…
I Love Yall… Nuggka.